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This piece ended up being something of a symbol for my struggles with mental illness in a number of ways. On the surface level, spring is my favorite season because it heralds the end of seasonal depression; longer days, flowers, more light, life coming back! I still have regular ol’ depression to contend with, but I still feel so much lighter and happier in spring.
The color pink is also a restorative and healing color for me. I scorned it for years growing up, responding to my own internalized misogyny even though when I was very little it was my favorite color. But it was always my grandma’s favorite color. She wore all pink, decorated her home in pink, and was known as “the pink lady” in her neighborhood. She was the sweetest most kind human being on the planet, and when she passed away I found myself being drawn to the color pink more often. It felt like somehow, she passed the concept of ‘pink’ along to me when she died.
And in practice, this piece show cased how difficult it can be to do things you love when struggling with a depressive episode. This painting was really difficult for me to finish, it took me a LOT longer than it should have. Through the whole painting, I felt like I was swimming through mental sludge. I couldn’t see what to do next in the piece, or conceptualize how to do even simple things. It was hard to create, and finishing it is something of a victory (if a small one).
Special thanks to my patrons on Patreon for funding this one, I love you guys!
Prints are available here - https://www.etsy.com/listing/707762.....-flowers-print
The color pink is also a restorative and healing color for me. I scorned it for years growing up, responding to my own internalized misogyny even though when I was very little it was my favorite color. But it was always my grandma’s favorite color. She wore all pink, decorated her home in pink, and was known as “the pink lady” in her neighborhood. She was the sweetest most kind human being on the planet, and when she passed away I found myself being drawn to the color pink more often. It felt like somehow, she passed the concept of ‘pink’ along to me when she died.
And in practice, this piece show cased how difficult it can be to do things you love when struggling with a depressive episode. This painting was really difficult for me to finish, it took me a LOT longer than it should have. Through the whole painting, I felt like I was swimming through mental sludge. I couldn’t see what to do next in the piece, or conceptualize how to do even simple things. It was hard to create, and finishing it is something of a victory (if a small one).
Special thanks to my patrons on Patreon for funding this one, I love you guys!
Prints are available here - https://www.etsy.com/listing/707762.....-flowers-print
Category Artwork (Digital) / All
Species Unspecified / Any
Gender Any
Size 990 x 1260px
File Size 1.74 MB
Listed in Folders
i love this piece visually, but also i can identify with a lot of what you said in the description. i have a hard time enjoying the color pink because i've learned to associate it with the kind of weak, submissive female that sexist men want me to be, as well as the spoiled, female bullies from my school days.
but, when it's devoid of those associations, it IS a beautiful color. i've always adored pink flowers in particular... and i've come to associate the color with the smell of roses, which always brings me happiness and peace.
i'm sorry to hear you are having a rough time. considering the last note i sent that didn't get a response, i think i have an idea why that might be... and i'm very sorry :C
but, when it's devoid of those associations, it IS a beautiful color. i've always adored pink flowers in particular... and i've come to associate the color with the smell of roses, which always brings me happiness and peace.
i'm sorry to hear you are having a rough time. considering the last note i sent that didn't get a response, i think i have an idea why that might be... and i'm very sorry :C
Aaaaah, this turned out fantastically! Immediately my phone wallpaper pls.
Hear you on the mental health thing. My featured submission is a piece like that for me ("Candescence"). I ended up working on it during a particularly depressive period and it turned into a very meditative and engrossing piece for that reason for me. It was really unplanned and unstructured, but I was fine as long as I could keep painting the fur...
Hear you on the mental health thing. My featured submission is a piece like that for me ("Candescence"). I ended up working on it during a particularly depressive period and it turned into a very meditative and engrossing piece for that reason for me. It was really unplanned and unstructured, but I was fine as long as I could keep painting the fur...
It took me a while to comment on this. Not sure how fast you on reading comments but I believe you'll see it.
I do happy "vent" arts myself and I see so much emotions on this piece dear. I can understand why people do gore art in bad times (I did it when I was around 12, back when I was ill all the year and stayed at home), but now, when you you are adult and need to push yourself working, vent art comes as happy/relaxed pieces or just showing my mood - emptyness and the feel of being exhausted. So I mean, I rarely do "classic vent art". And many people then just doesn't notice you feel bad, descriptions are not read anyway. People see another happy face and probably just only ones who cares about you are noticing the truth.
Pink is amazing color, and the great emotions and maybe memories, it gives it. Pink is also a color of spring, love and softness <3 very positive emotions. Good turned piece after a lot of struggles through depressive thoughts is so nice to see! Also somehow I don't remember you draw such perspectives and views? In that way, I mean, I remember some epic buildings, but such position is really interesting and beautiful! Gives some little fish eye effects and also some dynamics *looks like animu ending kinda, in a good way* and well, you renders, especially work on wings, is always magical!
Just from the preview I thought it is very personal and very important, standing out piece. You are amazing <3 I feel so inspired by it really ;^; I'm doing very busy and tired myself now.
From the past weeks all updates was concept arts, which are amazing too, but I feel happy to see some full drawings. You're opening comms, so good luck with them :3
I do happy "vent" arts myself and I see so much emotions on this piece dear. I can understand why people do gore art in bad times (I did it when I was around 12, back when I was ill all the year and stayed at home), but now, when you you are adult and need to push yourself working, vent art comes as happy/relaxed pieces or just showing my mood - emptyness and the feel of being exhausted. So I mean, I rarely do "classic vent art". And many people then just doesn't notice you feel bad, descriptions are not read anyway. People see another happy face and probably just only ones who cares about you are noticing the truth.
Pink is amazing color, and the great emotions and maybe memories, it gives it. Pink is also a color of spring, love and softness <3 very positive emotions. Good turned piece after a lot of struggles through depressive thoughts is so nice to see! Also somehow I don't remember you draw such perspectives and views? In that way, I mean, I remember some epic buildings, but such position is really interesting and beautiful! Gives some little fish eye effects and also some dynamics *looks like animu ending kinda, in a good way* and well, you renders, especially work on wings, is always magical!
Just from the preview I thought it is very personal and very important, standing out piece. You are amazing <3 I feel so inspired by it really ;^; I'm doing very busy and tired myself now.
From the past weeks all updates was concept arts, which are amazing too, but I feel happy to see some full drawings. You're opening comms, so good luck with them :3
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